Vulnerability: A Reason Not to Blog

So, it's been a while.  Toward the end of the summer, my work world got turned upside down, my husband's job got busier, our oldest went through a little rough patch behavior-wise, and I've had the distinct feeling that I've been digging out of a hole ever since.  Even my easy ol' add-pictures-of-my-kids blog suffered for a few weeks there.  And this one, well....

I was trying to figure out why I just couldn't make myself blog.  The past couple of months have taken it out of me, but that wasn't it.  I've been through rough months before, but blogging is something I enjoy.  I can usually make some time for it.  I typically have a list of things that I'd like to blog about at my next opportunity.

I'm sure part of the gridlock is because I don't blog about work (and as an employment lawyer, I'd advise that you not either!), and a lot of what I have to say is about work.  So it will have to wait.  And in the meantime, I'm left wondering what to say and somewhat incapable of being vulnerable on a blog that is vulnerable by its very nature.

I realized that I'm also having a hard time being vulnerable these days in "real life," as my oldest calls it.  A sense of betrayal draws me inward, this I have learned.  And an inward focus means strained relationships with God, with others, and apparently with the blog.  I can chalk up my withdrawal to introspection, soul searching, and even discretion.  That sounds much better.  But I believe this inward focus does true damage as it robs me of vulnerability.

So, in an effort to refocus, I'm going to do a little series on vulnerability this week.  Stay tuned, and welcome back...